A innoscence I missed everytime

I was on the non striker's end. Sachin Tendulkar was on striker's end. It is always pleasing to see Sachin bat. I was witnessing the 8th wonder of the world so near by. He was on 50 and I was still to open my account. I have already wasted 10 balls. He came close to me and told me nothing to worry. Play your natural game. It was Wasim Akram from the other end. I was sweating to see him at the other end. This time a bouncer from him, I hit it for six. Oh God I can’t believe it. It gave me full of confidence on my abilities. In next 30 balls I reached 98. What a wonder! So It was so close to my debut hundred. Who doesn’t want to achieve this feat alongside God of cricket? But my faith was totally different. She was moving near side screen. Oh! God what she is doing here? I couldn't concentrate and was clean bowled by Waqar yorker. "putta get up ", My sister voice hit my ears. Oh! God why didi also came to see my nervous ninety? As I was thinking about this, some one poured water on my face. As I got up I came to know that it was just a dream. Finally my nervous ninety dreams ended with my sister pouring water on my face. Even in my dreams P_____ coming.


Yesterday was Rakhi day. Whole school tied me rakhi. My right hand was full of rakhies. I was deliberately hiding from the scene. I didn’t want her to tie me rakhi. As I just passed the school gate, all my little sisters were holding rakhi. I was searching for her to see whether she will also tie me rakhi. She was not there. I just went to classroom. All my sisters including two little Ramya tied me rakhi. Suguna and all my classmates tied me. Thanks God she came and talked with me and disappeared with C______. I don’t know why I am thinking all these nonsense. But now a days in my dreams not only cricket and space comes but she is also coming. God please help me to overcome this. People have lot of expectation from me. Didi, Dad,. Mom everyone has lot of expectation. You just save me from this stupid nonsense thinking.

This was when I started writing dairy. In 7th standard I was writing diary in a raw manner. That was in Kannada and I have translated this into English and some words I have changed to beautify. Wonderful memories of my life. Today I laugh while reading these stuffs. In 7th standard only ............. . I never blocked my emotions. I thought let it flow like river of water so that my mind can peacefully enjoy the beauty of life. I named my Diary Honey and later it is changed to some persons name whom I became a big fan.