God in you has to be used for the right reason....................

              I was reading Sudha Murthy's "WISE AND OTHERWISE". Thanks to Ketan S Nadar who referred me this book through his blog. Otherwise I was unaware of such a beautiful work. I have read some of her articles in Vijaya Karnataka newspaper. But this one every human being should read. She has narrated her experiences in life with her beautiful words. After reading this, I realised how important it is to make sure that your good work should reach right people in right way.

             I had a small stint with Teach India. Those Sundays were one of my best experience in my life. I used to go to RT Nagar govt school for teaching those small kids. Even though we were able to arise curiosity in students but the school teachers were not ready to help us in what we wanted to deliver. School teachers were more interested in academics than the computer skills and life skills. Even organisers left with no cue what they are doing?. But this didn't bothered me as I was selfish. I always love kids. For me quality time spent with them is important than what is right for them. Even those students were not in a situation to analyse what is important for them. But I found God in their innocence and I tried my level best to teach whatever assigned to me.

           When God term has come in the middle, I want to tell you all that what I meant God is ? My definition of God has changed with time. Earlier I was very religious and punctual to prayers.Everyday I used to visit temples. Even in Siddavana Gurukula my belief continued. After I left Siddavana everything drastically changed. Today I visit temple rarely, but I have not stopped worshipping God. I have found God in my family who stood by me in every difficult situation, in my friends who encourage me to do the best, my work which has given me bread and butter, in those innocent kids who have made my life beautiful, in my inspiration who has given me a reason to live. In totality my definition of God has changed for the right reason.

        Continuing with the topic where I paused. Helping the needy people always requires special attention. Some times you end up with helping wrong people for wrong cause. One day while leaving for my home a person came to me and asked 20Rs for his bus charge. He told me that he has lost his purse and do not have enough money to return to home. Even though I had doubt about his words, I gave him 20Rs. He showed his gratitude towards me and left. But I didn't stopped there and followed him without his notice. He went to wine shop and ordered for drinks. He told he didn't have money for travel and now he is drinking in my money. I learnt a lesson from this episode.

         But history repeats. For the second time he came on my way and again same dialogue repeated. But then he asked only 10Rs. I thought then he had shortage of only 10Rs for buying his drink. He didn't recognised me and that made my work easier. I asked him where you want to go? He told Malleshwaram. Malleshwaram was on the way to my home. I told come with me, I am also going to Malleshwaram. He tried to escape telling many reasons but I was not ready to leave him. With little hesitation he came with me. We got down in Malleshwaram circle. Now I turned to him, I will come with you to your home and return me my money. Now he was in fix and told me he don't have money. I told him not repeat this once again. Whether he learnt a lesson or not but he will think twice before doing it again.

                              God in you has to be used for right reason and wisely.

ಮೇಘಧೂತ

Am I an entrepreneur material???

                                            I was reading Subroto Bagachi’s ‘The High Performance Entrepreneur’. I was completely overwhelmed by the narration. After reading this book I started thinking deeply. He has mentioned so many entrepreneur qualities. One of them is resilience. He gave an example of Wipro and narrated how Ajim Premji was firm resilient when Giants like IBM entered Indian market. I started thinking whether we are an entrepreneur material.

                                           My answer to this question is yes. These qualities are embodied in our self. But we rarely recognize it. Some people are very good in marketing their talent and some are not. Many of my friends started their own company but failed to become an entrepreneur. After reading that book I came with some conclusions. If I want to be an entrepreneur how I must dealt with the process of becoming entrepreneur. You can go through the book to know more about entrepreneur profile.

                                             When I entered engineering I was not having specific goal. I wanted to become an astronaut but my health conditions stopped me to study away from Karnataka. First year understood what is engineering all about. 2nd year went in creating an interest in the topic. That was the time I was studying my favorite subject FAFL. 3rd year full of dreams and by the time I started my final year project the dreams were grown into tree. I always wanted to play a big role in whatever I do.

                                               After relieving from VTU I joined Gumbi. Here I want to tell you the truth. There are so many young people who want to start a company very soon they complete their engineering. For all those who have this dream, my suggestion is do not make decisions in hurry. You may make profit in the business, but failed to become an entrepreneur. Some people also misjudge IT field. One of my friends who owned a bread factory started a software firm. He treated the employees same as bread factory workers. Result is in front of me. Company never became an entrepreneurship centre. So I always ask you to work in a small firm, get some exposure and then think about your decision.

                                               Gumbi was a small company. They were already into animation field. But for a software team, I and my project manager were the two employees. My CEO has told me he will see my performance for a month then only he will say yes. But I didn’t give that much time to decide. I think, in one or two days, I have convinced them I was the right person to work in that team. Logically I was very good but technically I was not fit for that position. My project was on Hongkong school project. My project manager didn’t tell any good things about me to management until I did some exceptional work in the project. He was very hard to convince since it was very difficult to match his skills. He was just like Sachin Tendulkar when comes to hard work. May be the staff searching logic, whole library system and some of the toughest queries I wrote made him to think I belong to the same league.

                                                    I was having information in most of the field, from education to politics, from sports to literature, from culture of foreign countries to Indian internal matters. Whenever I used to read non textual books people used to tease me for wasting my time. But I never stopped reading books. I used to visit villages and used to write documentary on their life style. These all helped me in giving my inputs to the project I worked, mainly to G-School and OPMS. I have seen many adult education centers running in villages and studied it. That helped me in giving inputs to OPMS, an adult education centre oriented project. It is different thing that the project never sold since the administration changed in district level and it was scrapped.

                                                          Then we moved to the project G-Education, video conferencing software. We both worked deeply into the technical aspect of the project. We studied lots of material and finally came with a solution. During this project luckily I got a chance to work with formerly senior scientist in Wipro, Santhoshanna (What we used to call him). Normally I used to work for more than 11 hours a day. That day I left office at 4 ‘o’ clock morning. One of my colleagues dropped me to my room. I was about to sleep. Suddenly a call came from my boss. I have to go to Mangalore for the implementation of G-Education. They told me it will be for a day. So I went with only a pair of clothes. But it was extended for a month. I was not having money to buy new clothes also. But I got a very good friend in Karthik who helped me during my stay in Mangalore.

                                              Being a poet if I don’t talk about Mangalore girls means it is meaningless. I was not in a position to leave Mangalore. I wanted to settle my family there only. But God doesn’t want me to make too many families. That’s why I have to leave Mangalore after partial successful campaign in G-Education. After I returned to Hubli due to some reason I quit my position in Gumbi. Later Ketan, my project manager continued his research in G-Education and made it successful. It was most learning experience because I was in a position to handle a big project alone.

                                                   When I came here in Bangalore two people helped me the most. One is my brother Raghu and another is my best friend Sharath Manjithaya. The decision to join Gumbi was against my family and leaving also was against them. But later they stood by me in both situations. My family always gave me freedom to choose my career and I will be grateful to them for their support. I and Sharath searched every corner of Bangalore. Though I was getting jobs, pay was very less. I was rejected in 16 companies in college and now I got through difficult interviews of most of the small companies. Finally I got one tailor made for me. Though initial pay was less but I smelled positive environment in that company.

                                                       I have heard experienced people telling, life is all about decisions. I felt it true when I got this opportunity. Rarely people will get this opportunity. My project manager completely believed my abilities. He had seen in me a wealth of imagination and a good team player. I designed API for Synway board. Not an easy task. In MNC’s 6-7 years experienced people will do such work. Many of my work include Dialer, Logger, Voicemail, Conference and most important part is Private Branch Exchange (PBX). I enjoyed every second of my work there and in this duration only, I got hundred percent hike in my salary and they give me bigger role in the company. Due to some reason when I quit that company my boss told me “We will miss you and you will miss us too”. That was the bonding between us. But I have kept a dream and I have to move towards reaching it. Till then I was building foundation and with my decision to join Mindtree I am moving one first step further. May be I finish it or not but If I will live for another ten years surely prove it I am an entrepreneur material. May be Mindtree will give me an opportunity to be an entrepreneur within the company.

After long nine years......

Dedicated to all MGN Pai friends.....



After long nine years

Touching the holy land,

Where I spent

Most glorious period



The day I remember

When I first came here

Sitting in last bench

To avoid rapid questions



Feared of answering

In KCA class,

But never feared to

Shout in combined class.



When I came here

I was alone.

When I left this place

I earned many friends.



Sagar Model

The best I ever made,

Debate with Sumanth

The experience I ever had.



A walk with SNB

In Gruha Sammelana,

A round with Sumukh

In back seat of bicycle.



A broken Love,

And fight with friends

A boring GGK

And Laughing HS



Siddapur to Sagar

Bus stand to BH Road

Lovely Girl Ranjeetha

And a gift from Shruthi.



Gonza and Shreyank

Teasing me in last bench.

SG and GNB

Shouting at me.



Asif and Hari

Mischievous twins

Sumanth and PJ Prasanna

Always at the top.



Shivappa and me

Sitting in the same bench

Looking at all

Commenting to everything.



Athith and Me

Shashi and Shri Hari

All were behind one

Subject of the century.



Salesman of the year

Sold my love letter

Together with broken heart

And Failed Desire.



Next day when I saw

Ranjtha in the window.

I forgot my love

And Went behind her.



Such is the joyful day.

I have ever spent.

Long live the memories

Long live the relationship.

ಅಮ್ಮ ನಿನ್ನ ನೋಡುವ ಹಂಬಲದಲ್ಲಿ

ಪ್ರೀತಿಯ ಅಮ್ಮ

                                                  ಹೇಗಿದ್ದೀರಾ ಅಂತ ಕೇಳೋದಿಲ್ಲ. ನನ್ನ ಅಮ್ಮ ಯಾವಾಗಲು ಚೆನ್ನಾಗಿರಬೇಕು ಎಂಬುದೇ  ನನ್ನ ಆಸೆ. ನಿಮಗೇನಾದರೂ ಆ ದೇವರು ಮನಸ್ಸು ನೋಯಿಸಿದರೆ ಅವನನ್ನು ಎಂದೆಂದಿಗೂ ಕ್ಷಮಿಸಲಾರೆ. ಇನ್ನು ನನ್ನ ಬಗ್ಗೆ ಕೇಳೇ ಕೇಳ್ತಿರಾ. ಅದು ನಂಗೆ ಗೊತ್ತಿದೆ.
                                                                
                                                  ಬೆಳಗ್ಗೆ ಎದ್ದದ್ದಾಯಿತು. ಆಫೀಸಿಗೆ ಲೇಟಾಗಿದೆ. ಗಡಿಬಿಡಿಯಲ್ಲಿ ಬಸ್ ಸ್ಟಾಂಡಲ್ಲಿ ನಿಂತದ್ದಾಯಿತು.ಬಸ್ಸು ಹತ್ತಿದ್ದೇನೆ. ಅದೇ ೧೭೬ ಬಸ್. ಕೆಲವು ದಿನಾಲೂ ನೋಡುವ ಮುಖಗಳು. ಒಂದು ಚಿಕ್ಕ ನಗೆಯಲ್ಲಿ ಮುಗಿದು ಹೋಯಿತು ಮಾತುಕತೆ. ಆಫೀಸಿನಲ್ಲಿ ಒಮ್ಮೆ ಕುಳಿತರೆ ಆಯಿತು, ಕೆಲಸ ಶುರು. ಅಲ್ಲಿ ಕೆಲಸ ಬಿಟ್ಟು ಬೇರೇನೂ ಮಾತನಾಡೋದಿಲ್ಲ. ಮನೆಗೆ ಬರಬೇಕಾದರೆ ರಾತ್ರಿ ೧೧ ರ ಆಸುಪಾಸು. ಅಣ್ಣನಾ? ಅವನು ಇತ್ತೀಚಿಗೆ ಬೇಗ ಬರ್ತಿದ್ದಾನೆ. ಆದರೆ ಊಟ ಆಗಿ ಎಲ್ಲ ಮುಗಿಸುವಾಗ ರಾತ್ರಿ ೨ ರ ಸಮಯ. ಇನ್ನು ಮಾತಾಡೋದೆನು ಬಂತು, ಮಲಗಲಿಕ್ಕೆ ಕಾತುರವಾಗಿರ್ತಿವಿ.ನಂಗೊತ್ತಮ್ಮ ಬೇಗ ಮಲಗು ಅಂತ ಹೇಳ್ತಿರಾ .ಏನು ಮಾಡೋದಮ್ಮ, ನಿನ್ನ ಬಾಯಿ ತುತ್ತು ತಿನ್ನದೇ ಬೇಗ ನಿದ್ರೆ ಬರೋದಿಲ್ಲ. ಈ ಹೊಟ್ಟೆಬಾಕನಿಗೆ ನೀವು  ಬಡಿಸಿಲ್ಲಾಂದರೆ ಊಟ ಅಷ್ಟಕ್ಕೆ ಅಸ್ಟೇ.

                                                 ನನಗಿನ್ನೂ ನೆನಪಿದೆ ಆ ದಿನಗಳು. ನಾನು ರವಿವಾರ ಬಂತೆಂದರೆ ಟಿವಿ ಮುಂದೆ ಪ್ರತ್ಯಕ್ಷ. ಮಹಾಭಾರತ, ಶಕ್ತಿಮಾನ್ ಮುಗಿಯುವವರೆಗೂ ನಾನು ಎಳೋದಿಲ್ಲಾಗಿತ್ತು. ನೀವೋ ಈ ಪ್ರೀತಿಯ ಪಾಪುಗೆ ಅಲ್ಲೇ ಉಪಹಾರ ಭೋಜನ ಒದಗಿಸುತ್ತಿದ್ದಿದ್ದು ನೆನಪಿದೆ. ಆ ಮೇಲೆ ನಾನು ಅಕ್ಕನ ಪುಸ್ತಕನ ಕದ್ದು ಮುಚ್ಚಿ ಓದ್ತಾ ಇದ್ದೆ. ರೋಮಿಯೋ ಜೂಲಿಯಟ್, ಹ್ಯಾಮ್ಲೆಟ್, ಶಾಕುಂತಲಾ ಹೀಗೆ ಹತ್ತಾರು ಪುಸ್ತಕ ಮುಗಿಸಿ ಬಿಟ್ಟಿದ್ದೆ. ಅಕ್ಕ ನಿನ್ನ ಪುಸ್ತಕ ಓದೋ, ಇವೆಲ್ಲಾ ಓದೋ ವಯಸ್ಸು ನಿನ್ದಲ್ಲಾ ಅಂತಿದ್ದರೆ, ನೀವು ಈ ಮುದ್ದು ಮಗನ ರಕ್ಷಣೆಗೆ ಬರ್ತಿದ್ದರಲ್ಲಾ. ಕ್ರಿಕೆಟ್ ಎನ್ನೋ ಹುಚ್ಚು ಆಟದ ಹಿಂದೆ ಬಿದ್ದಾಗ ಮನೆಗೆ ಬಂದ ತಕ್ಷಣ ಹುಸುಳಿ, ಅವಲಕ್ಕಿ, ಶೀರಾ ಮಾಡಿ ಕೊಡುತ್ತಿದ್ದಿದ್ದು  ಹೇಗೆ ಮರೆಯಲಿ. ಪಪ್ಪಾ ತಂದಿದ್ದ ತಿಂಡಿಗಳನ್ನೆಲ್ಲಾ ಒಬ್ಬನೇ ಮುಗಿಸಿದರೂ ಚಿಕ್ಕವನು ಎಂದು ಮುದ್ದಿನಿಂದ ಅಪ್ಪಿಕೊಳ್ಳುತ್ತಿದ್ದ ಗಳಿಗೆ ನನಗೆ ಬರವಸೆ ಮೂಡಿಸಿತ್ತು. ನಾನು ಮಾಡುವ ಎಲ್ಲ ಕೆಲಸದ ಹಿಂದೆ ನೀವು ಇರುತ್ತೀರಾ ಎಂಬ ಬರವಸೆ. ಬಹುಷಃ ನೀವು ಇಟ್ಟಿರುವ ಪ್ರೀತಿ ನನ್ನನ್ನು ಸರಿ ದಾರಿಯಲ್ಲಿ ನಡೆಸಿದೆ ಎಂದರೆ ತಪ್ಪಾಗಲ್ಲ.

                                                ನಾನು ನನ್ನ ಒರೆಗೆಯ ಹುಡುಗಿಯರ ಬಗ್ಗೆ ಅಕ್ಕನೊಂದಿಗೆ ಹೇಳುತ್ತಿದ್ದರೆ ನೀವು  ನಗುತ್ತಾ ಇರ್ತಿದ್ರಿ. ಹೈಸ್ಕೂಲಿನ ಪ್ರೇಮಾಯಣ ಬಹಿರಂಗವಾದಾಗ ಆಗಲಿ, ಕಾಲೇಜಿನ ಕಟ್ಟ ಕಥೆಗಳು ಸ್ಪೋಟಗೊಂಡಾಗವಾಗಲಿ ತಲೆ ಕೆಡಿಸಿಕೊಳ್ಳದೆ ಬುದ್ದಿವಾದ ಹೇಳಿದ ನಿಮ್ಮ ಮಾತುಗಳು ಯಾವಾಗಲೂ ನನ್ನ ಎಚ್ಚರಿಸುತ್ತದೆ.

                                               ಬಹುಶಃ ಉಜಿರೆಯ ದಿನಗಳು ನನ್ನ ಪಾಡಿಗೆ ಬಹಳ ಕಷ್ಟದ ದಿನಗಳು. ನಿಮ್ಮ ಬಿಟ್ಟು ವರ್ಷಗಟ್ಟಲೆ ಕಳೆಯಬೇಕಾದ ದಿನಗಳು. ಆ ದಿನಗಳಲ್ಲಿ ಫೋನಿನಲ್ಲಿ ನಾ ಕೇಳಿದ ನಿಮ್ಮ ಗಧ್ಗಧಿತ ಧ್ವನಿ, ನಿಮ್ಮ ಪ್ರೀತಿಯ ಸಂಕೇತ. ಉಜಿರೆ ಮುಗಿಯಿತು. ಇನ್ನು ಮುಂದೆ ನಿಮ್ಮ ಜೊತೆ ಹಾಯಾಗಿ ಕಳೆಯೋಣವೆಂದರೆ ಧಾರವಾಡದ ಕರೆಯೋಲೆ. ನಾಲ್ಕು ವರ್ಷಗಳು ಮುಗಿಯುವ ಹೊತ್ತಿಗೆ ನಿಮ್ಮಿಂದ ದೂರ ಇರುವುದು ಅಭ್ಯಾಸ ಆಗಿ ಹೋಗಿತ್ತು. ಪರೀಕ್ಷೆ ಮುಗಿದ ಮರುದಿನವೇ ಕೆಲಸಕ್ಕೆ ಹಾಜರಾದೆ. ಆಗೊಮ್ಮೆ ಈಗೊಮ್ಮೆ ಬಂದಾಗಲೆಲ್ಲ ನಾನು ನನ್ನ ಕಾಲೇಜಿನ ಹುಡುಗಿಯರ ಮೇಲೆ ಬರೆದೀರುವ ಕವನ ಓದಿ ಬೋರು ಹೊಡಿಸುತ್ತಿದ್ದೆ.ಒಂದು ದಿನವೂ ನಿಮಗೆ ಏನು ಬೇಕಮ್ಮ? ಎಂದು ಕೇಳಲಿಲ್ಲ. ನಿಮ್ಮ ಉತ್ತರಾನೂ ಗೊತ್ತು. ಮಗ ನೀನು ಚೆನ್ನಾಗಿರಬೇಕು. ಊಟ ಚೆನ್ನಾಗಿ ಮಾಡು. ಸಿಟ್ಟು ಕಡಿಮೆ ಮಾಡ್ಕೋ. ಅನ್ನ ಕೊಡೋ ದಣಿಗಳಿಗೆ ಎದುರುತ್ತರ ಕೊಡಬೇಡ. ಆದರೆ ಏನು ಮಾಡೋದಮ್ಮ. ಬಿಸಿ ರಕ್ತ. ನಿನ್ನಲ್ಲಿರುವ ಒಂದು ಒಳ್ಳೆ ಗುಣ ಇದ್ದಿದ್ರೆ ನಾನು ನಿನ್ನ ಬಗ್ಗೆ ತುಂಬಾ ಕಾಳಜಿ ವಹಿಸ್ತಿದ್ದೆ. ನಿನ್ನ ಜೊತೇನೆ ಇದ್ದು ನಿನ್ನ ನೋಡ್ಕೂತಿದ್ದೆ. ದಯವಿಟ್ಟು ಕ್ಷಮಿಸಮ್ಮ.

                                                ಆ ಕೆ.ಎಸ್.ಆರ್.ಟಿ.ಸಿ ಬಸ್ ಸ್ಟ್ಯಾಂಡ್ ಹತ್ತಿರ ಹೋದಾಗಲೆಲ್ಲ ಶಿರಸಿ ಬಸ್ ಹತ್ಕೊಂಡು ಬಂದು ಬಿಡಬೇಕು ಅನ್ನಿಸತ್ತೆ. ಆದರೆ ಏನು ಮಾಡೋದಮ್ಮ. ಈ ಕೆಲಸವೇ ಈ ರೀತಿ. ಈ ಅಮ್ಮಂದಿರ ದಿನದಂದು ನಿನಗೇನು ಕೊಡಲಿ ಎಂದು ತಿಳಿಯದೆ ಈ ಪತ್ರ ಬರೆದಿದ್ದೇನೆ. ನಿನ್ನ ನೋಡುವ ಹಂಬಲದಲ್ಲಿ ದಿನ ಕಳೆಯುತ್ತಿರುವ
                                                                     
                                                                                                             ಇಂತಿ ನಿನ್ನ ಮುದ್ದಿನ
                                                                                                                  ಪುಟ್ಟ.
                                           

Dating : A Story

Few people go for dating after their online meeting. They dream about the girl but when they meet the opinion changes.



Waiting for her to be online,
I spent most of my time in
Seeing her name on the list.

I don't know what I name this,
It has blossomed in my heart
With love and affection for her.

If I can't reach her one day,
She will come to me in nights
In the dream with a childish smile.

Listening to all my worries,
With so much care and attention
And giving me useful advice.

Jumping to all my success,
As If the success belonged to us
And I have done it for her.

Her eyes are like black hole,
Attracting me towards her
In millisecond I lifted my head.

Coming out of my dream,
I spoke to her about the date
I waited for my life time.

The dream was not the real one,
She was really the different
A beautiful face but no heart.

I smirked on my face,
Waiting for this girl,
To whom I am an episode in her life.

Gumbi, An experience

Always people try to choose the smallest and simplest way. But for me it was one of the difficult days, even if I touched flowers it would have turn into spines. All those things started after PSPL debacle. Until then I was enjoying every minute of my life by sleeping in classes,waking up a bit, asking doubts, then again sleeping. Horrible experience of final year project gone. Horrible because my two project mates(one of them was nice guy, from Nepal) always fighting with each other and finally when project completed, hardware was damaged and we were not in a position to repay it.

But in the mean time my best friend of 4 years, Soorya gave me offer in his company. He asked me to attend interview. I knew his brother Harsha. So I was not afraid of interview. But interview was taken by my future project leader Ketan. In 4 years of engineering I had learnt only one thing, clearing the passing marks. While he was shooting questions on SQL, I thought I will be rejected. I thought of asking my friend how many question I have to answer for clearing the interview. After interview, I thought of not asking results. I heard the project leader was not happy about my interview. But Soorya, the director believed in my abilities and I was in. But it was not over. My brother wanted me to work in Bangalore. He has already told many of his friends about my job and He wanted me to join HP. But my roommate Shridhar Bhat who was working in the same company convinced my parents and I joined Gumbi software, the day after my final lab.

It was my first day and I saw my project leader was working on GSchool. He looked like a workaholic and I thought tough days not gone but now started. There was another person, always dreaming about his career and a special mention here because he was my senior in SDM. The great Mahesh Shetty, who taught us(me and Shri) the art of dreaming, gave me one NIIT book to read. I started working examples on it. After completing my first work the calculator, I started jumping. I showed it to Soori( He is always Soori to me). I showed it to the great CEO of ECS, in fact my best friend shri. It was a game for me. I thoroughly enjoyed it. I started doing more complex(not so complex) one. Finally my project leader Ketan told me about validation in project he is doing. It was my first work in the project. I started with validation, then designing and finally the project.

My most part of the day I had spent with Ketan. This man is entirely different kind of person. He looked like a very rough but heartily he was very smooth and very serious about his career and knowledge. Initially I was calling him Sir. But I got scolding for calling him Sir. After so many tries I stopped calling him Sir and finally the word Ketan came from my mouth. For him dot net is life and rest all comes later.In office hours, he never left his seat except for lunch and while going to home. Such a sincere person. But for me it was something I never done before. I love food and I never left it for anything except my stupid novels. But I hesitated to leave my project leader alone. Some times while working he used to work till 5 to 6 in the evening and a lazy person like me wouldn't have expected this in my life. But it became a habit and I started thinking like Ketan. We used to discuss technical matters in lunch hours also. Because of him, my knowledge improved spontaneously and I really grateful to him for his support and kindness towards me . He is unforgettable because he taught me how to earn my livelihood.

For many people I looked like a kid. One among them is Kshama. She used to call me BJ. A wonderful teacher. She used to take English class in our sister company ECS. I had a great bond with her. She used to bring food for me from her PG. We used to go for shopping and movies together. Why I liked her so much because she used to give heartily guidance to me. She used to tell me God has sent me as brother to her. When she left the company I was there to leave her to Udupi, her home town.

It was those days, I was working like a clock. I really missed my mother during work. But God was great, he gave me two lovely sisters in the company, Mangala and Gauri. I think they have not seen any difference between me and their brothers. I used to say all my stories to them even my dance in the lift was not exception. I used to bring hotel foods and used to take their home made foods. During that time I was free from diseases largely due to love and care my two sisters shown to me. Mean while Mangala got married and Gauri left office. I became alone once again in my busy life. Later Akshata came. I used to hate her initially ,because she used to sit in Mangalakka's seat. But as the days passed she became very close to me. Prashi joined the company in the middle. Life become smoother once again not comparable to earlier one but Prashi made it very special.
I don't know why people loved that much. The respect they gave me it was wonderful experience. I guided Ananth to take PUC exams. He was always there to help me in very difficult days.

That day I was working till 4 in the mid night. Later Prashi dropped me to my room. I was about to sleep. Suddenly a message came from bosses to pack my bags to Mangalore. I was told the work is for only 1 day. A car was waiting for me. On morning 12, I was there in Mangalore. I went to BSNL office where our studio was there. In that studio I spent one month. That was a horrible experience, which I don't want to reveal here. But I earned many good friends. Karthik,Ritesh,Anush and many more. In simple words, I can say that the Mangalore experience is my best experience till today. I must be thankful to Karthik and Co for making it very special. I talked with Professor Bosco, and it was a thrilling experience. After one month of some finest and horrible experience I returned to Hubli. Lot of things have changed there. A new accountant Suma madam was there. Prashi, Ajit, Akshata, Ananth,Guru all were there.

Before ending this, I have to write about two persons. Ajit and Suma madam. Ajit is the finest talent I have seen. His animation amazes every one. His works have always beautified our work. Suma madam and her husband both were very special. Because trauma they have faced is unimaginable. One day I visited her house. I saw her husband sitting in bed. She told her husband story. Her husband had a major accident and had a surgery in leg. I couldn't see his position. Tears came out of my eyes. Even today he calls me and ask me about my health. God has finally shown some sympathy towards them and doctors are saying he will be alright in coming days.

June 5, World environment day is very special day for me. I joined my company on that day and coincidence is that on that day I celebrate my birthday. A big party was there in the company. Every one knew that I was about to leave the company. So that day Prashi,Ananth,Akshata,Suma madam,Basu every one was there. My best birthday party. On the last day in Gumbi, Prashant,Basu came to say goodbye to me. prashi was weeping like a kid, His voice still echoing in my ears."Please bro don't leave me". A one year two months passed like a second but the love they have given to me is unimaginable. I am really proud to be associated with such a finest team.

To Mrs SDM: ಬಣ್ಣಿಸಲಿ ಹ್ಯಾಂಗ ನಿನ್ನ

Well it may not be my best but the girl to whom I wrote many poems I must say happy valentines day.............

ಬಣ್ಣಿಸಲಿ ಹ್ಯಾಂಗ
ನಿನ್ನ ಮೇಲಿನ ಪ್ರೀತಿಯ ಬಣ್ಣವ

ಉದ್ದಗಿನ ದೇಹವದು
ಇಲಿ ಗಾತ್ರದ ಕೂದಲಲಿ
ಪುಟ್ಟ ಪುಟ್ಟ ಹೆಜ್ಜೆಯ ಇಡುತ
ನನ್ನ ಹೃದಯವ ಕಬಳಿಸಿರುವ
ನಿನ್ನ ಸೊಬಗನು
ಬಣ್ಣಿಸಲಿ ಹ್ಯಾಂಗ

ನಗುವಿನ ಕ್ಷೀರ ಸಾಗರದಲ್ಲಿ
ಮಿಂದೆದ್ದು ಬರುತಿರಲು
ಕಣ್ಣುಗಳ ಪ್ರೀತಿಯಲಿ
ವಿಶ್ವವೇ ಬರಿಸಿರುವ
ನಿನ್ನ ಚೆಲುವನು
ಬಣ್ಣಿಸಲಿ ಹ್ಯಾಂಗ

ಕಾಮವಿಲ್ಲದ ಮನಸದು
ಮುಗ್ಧ ಕರುವಿನ ಬಿಂಬವದು
ಮುದ್ದಿಸಲು ಹತ್ತಿರ ಬರಲು
ದೂರಸರಿಯುತ್ತಿರುವ
ನಿನ್ನ ಕಮಲ ನಯನಗಳ
ಬಣ್ಣಿಸಲಿ ಹ್ಯಾಂಗ

ನೂರು ಸಾಲುಗಳ ಪಯಣವಿದು
ಮನದೊಡತಿಯ ಕವನವಿದು
ಸ್ವಾತಿ ಮುತ್ತಿನಂತೆ
ಹೃದಯ ಸಾಗರದಲಿ ಜನಿಸಿರುವ
ನಿನ್ನ ಮೂರುತಿಯ
ಬಣ್ಣಿಸಲಿ ಹ್ಯಾಂಗ
ನಿನ್ನ ಮೇಲಿನ ಪ್ರೀತಿಯ
ತಿಳಿಸಲಿ ಹ್ಯಾಂಗ

Is India shining?

Every year lac of women will come to cities in search of jobs, to make their career and for their livelihood. Less than 1% exploit others. 30% people live happily facing very small problems, but 59% will be exploited by the people. Our democratic leaders say we have given enough power to women. But they forgot to give the security each women wanted to have, to live freely in the society. No reservation, no policies will change this unless they will punish those Hippocrates.

I am saying those harsh words because these women not only has to suffer the fear of terrorist,rapists,thieves, they also has to fear of these bureaucrats,police men and their bosses. Ex-Commissioner Rathore in case of Ruchika, An IAS officer and unnamed politician in case of Shivani Batnagar, ND Tiwari,or mystery man behind Arushi murder case.A foreigner murder story in Goa has made India unfavourable for tourism. After all these incident our politicians are saying India shining. If these incidents will make India shine, it is better to have non shining India.

One lady came to one small city from a village. She joined a small company. That company was undergoing huge loss. One by one all employees left company. This girl also decided to leave company. But her boss was not ready to relieve her. He thought about a master plan and proposed her. I don't know how an intelligent girl like her fell in a deep cave. After some days he gave her marriage invitation card to her and told her to forget him. She was courageous and tried to forget all those incidents. She left the company and joined another company.

Problems never left her and here also similar inciedents followed her. A colleague of her started following her. Already came out from one shock, she was not in a position to face another. She told to another colleague of her say 'Y' and he solved that issue. She was sharing all her problems with this 'Y'. He stood as a great friend to her but in the mean time he left the company. That lady was always close with people even though lots of pain inside.But her brother saw her talking with a neighbour uncle and reported this to her mother. This was sufficient to create a negative waves in her home. Her parents wanted her to come back. But her dream was to stand independently without any one's support.Her dream was suppressing, but God didn't listen to her kind request. With lot of pressure from family she left that city and came back to village. But God's faith was different. Ambitious girl killed herself by committing suicide and didn't opened her eyes then after.


It is a true incident which one of my friend(say Y) told to me. Really a great message for all those parents who will press for their own interest without knowing what their children want. It is message for all girls to keep away from frauds. She has tolerated many obstacles before ending her life. We may think one should not commit suicide for those silly reason. But it may be silly for us, not for those who have poured water and whole life to their ambitious tree. I don't know when harassing women will stop, but India will shine when people of this nation get enough security, enough freedom to live.

I can't imagine Kannada film industry without you.

We know South Indians are very crazy about the movie stars. They are like God and the temple built on honour of them. In this era of cunning and political film industry one man stood above all and it is great honour to write about such a person who entertained us till his death.


My brother and me always used to fight in childhood because of difference in opinions. He used to provoke me by telling negative opinions about my favorite things. One such difference of opinion was about Dr Raj and Dr Vishnuvardhan. Vishnuvardhan and Shankar Nag are always my favourite, one left too early and latter left us when industry wanted a leader like him.

That day morning 5 '0' clock my brother messaged me "Your favourite sahasa Simha no more". I read that message at about 6 and suddenly switched on my TV. It was a great shock. Still I couldn't believe he is no more. Bandhana is perhaps my first movie I liked most in Kannada and if I list my best, 90% of films will be starring Dr Vishnuvardhan. His Yajamana,Apta mitra, all time best Naagara Haavu and there are many to mention.

He always kept himself away from politics and controversies. But controversies didn't move away from him. With so much controversies surrounding Gandada gudi incident he continued his service to Kannada. Though people said so many things he engaged in his work with same love and affectionate for kannada. There is always debate on who is the best among Shankar Nag, Dr Raj and Dr Vishnuvardhan. But they are great in their own respect. Shankar Nag introduced and nurtured so many young talents to Kannada industry. Dr Raj led every moment in Kannada film industry. And Dr Vishnuvardhan always served as a people and director's actor and led an example for others with his simplicity and humanitarian characters.
Long live Vishnu Dada,Long live all three, Long live Kannada.

2009 : Some memories and some celebrations

Friends, 2009 is over. Those who had bad 2009 are looking for greater 2010 and those who had greater run in 2009 are looking to continue it. Well 2009 is a past I'll not remember any happenings in future because I want to start my innings with fresh mind and attitude. Hope this New Year will bring lots of happy moments in your life. But one last time I want to memories how 2009 was according to me.

2009 was a mixture of happiness and sorrows. I would like to relate my life with my family, friends, work and my surroundings. I don't want to tell anything about my family in detail here. But 2009 I have enjoyed more seeing a little member of our family, my nephew (my sister's son) Shreyas. He is mischievous like me and I enjoyed his company. My cousin released his first novel “Kathege Saavilla”. Though I couldn't read it properly, it is a proud moment for me. He is a genius and his thoughts always created enthusiasm in various subjects.

2009 has been very difficult for my few friends. The recession effect has hit badly the industries. But I know the potential inside them and felt very bad for them. I hope this new year bring lots of happiness and success to them. But there is some good news also. My best friends Ashesh and Raghu Mulgund visited Johannesburg of course for official work. Varun is still in Argentina enjoying with football mad nation. Guru went to Australia and came back.Abhay Nadigere is still in Canada enjoying his time with white people. Vedant and Anil Mahale went for higher studies. Many more names will come in the line up like Sumant and many more. But I don’t know where they disappeared and I will reserve my comments.

But best thing about year 2009 is I saw beautiful talents. A music composer in Kedar and Singer in Guru combined together to reach a mile stone. Soorya KN one among tri-murthy of SDM has some good news also. His new company reached some successes. Not to forgot my best friends Shridhar Bhat, Mahesha Shetty and Ketan Nadar's contribution in that success. I have to specially mention Shridhar Bhat. Because he was my roommate and association with people like him really motivated me. My friends Ganesh and Madhura are doing PhD. Prasanna Bhat was already there. I tried my level best to complete Engineering but these fellows are doing triple degrees. Ganesh Naik whose name I have mentioned earlier, he left the job in beautiful Goa (everything beautiful there) to do PhD. Bold decision and hats off to them. Vinay salunke who is among BJ's regular visitor is busy with J2EE.Many more people are there to mention but Most important among them is Sharath Manjithaya. He is a versatile singer no doubt about it. But He gave me his best this time "Kannada Nadina Jeeva Nadi". Perhaps it is the best song I have heard from my friends. But best of all is my ex-colleague's husband recovered from the injury which it took 3-4 years to heal.

Happenings around me also has mixture of sad and happiness. I will be writing political India 2009 a special article in coming days so ill not be mentioning it in this article. Starting with the happy news. Indian cricket team has become no 1 in test cricket. I enjoyed every performances especially Sehwag and Gambhir. My favorite Messi has become star of 2009.Multi talented Shruthi Haasan joined film industry. And bad thing is still Kasab and Afgal not hanged. No special in it. But it boils me a lot. Shilpa Shetty tied knot with Raj Kundra breaking several hearts and I was one among it. Well jokes apart, Our Great actor, my favorite actor, angry young man of sandalwood Vishnuvardhan and Great singer C Ashwath died in closing days of 2009. Vishnuvardhan has been pillar of Kannada industry for many years. He was just 59 and it came as a shock for all Kannadigas.

Individually for me it is good year. With all the support and confidence my family and friends have given to me I am thankful to them. A great reward came from my bosses and I am very thankful to them for this opportunity they have given to me. I learnt so many new things from TAPI to dotnet remoting. For little while I was associated with Teach India, but due to some work pressure and health reason I have to temporarily postpone it. That hurt me a lot.It is my dream to work for my society and I want to do it in a big in coming days.Thanks to Sharath Manjithaya, Chaitanya MR and Raghunandan for giving useful suggestion in improving my literature. I started this blog along with two other blogs. I joined EKavi but couldn't spend time with the association. This organization has created an awareness in the people that is worth mentioning here.My bike riding dream, music learning and so many things are still not fulfilled. I will end this article with saying good bye to 2009. 2010 is a fresh innings and I want to bat more in the coming days.